A Luminous Surrender

(Forest Floor Series — Story Behind the Photograph)

Some photographs arrive the way we expect them to.
Most do not.

I had set out that morning with a clear vision: a stone-arched bridge framed by peak foliage, the kind of scene I’d scouted on maps, pinned on lists, and imagined for years. It was supposed to be simple—an hour north, quick setup, and then the reward of finally capturing a composition I’d been thinking about for seasons.

But disappointment showed up long before the bridge did.

Ten minutes from the location, the landscape changed. The vibrant color I’d seen on nearly the entire drive simply vanished. Hillsides thinned to dull browns, trees shed early, and the forest looked stripped of the very thing I had come for. When I arrived at the bridge, I didn’t even park. I stopped the car, stared, and felt everything inside me drop.

This wasn’t just about foliage.
It wasn’t just the sky.
It wasn’t just the harsh, unrelenting sun the Northeast had been suffering through for months.

It was cumulative.

A disappointing trip to the White Mountains.
Another to Shenandoah.
Another to the Blue Ridge Mountains.
No clouds, no mood, no atmosphere—just flatness. Emptiness. Light so harsh it cut through any chance at subtlety.

And layered behind all of this was something else:
I had just been laid off.

I suddenly had more time than I’d had in years, time I thought I’d use to create, to chase conditions, to make the kind of images I had always postponed for “when life slows down.” And now that it had slowed, the environment refused to cooperate. Every unmade image began to feel heavier. The frustration wasn’t artistic—it was personal.

So when I looked at that bridge and saw nothing worth lifting the camera for, it wasn’t photography that broke me open. It was the realization that nothing was working—not the skies, not the season, not the plans, not the sense of direction.

I drove off. No highway, no GPS guidance, no destination. Just back roads—the kind that sometimes redeem a failed outing with a forgotten barn or a lone tree in a field. I needed the possibility of surprise. Anything to feel like the day wasn’t wasted.

Thirty minutes later, I stumbled upon a river.
The foliage there was gone too.
The bridge nearby had potential, but the sun was too harsh, carving deep shadows without depth or nuance.

Yet I parked anyway.

Not to shoot.
Just to breathe.

I walked out onto the large rocks in the river, hands empty, camera still in the car. The water moved slowly—just enough to hypnotize. Despite the long stretch of dry weather, the current carried a soft, rhythmic murmur, and the ripples caught the late daylight in a way that felt unusually intentional.

And then I saw it.

A single leaf, pinned gently under the water’s surface, glowing softly.
Not bright—just unmistakably present.

It reminded me of a Mike Shainblum video I’d once seen, where he’d photographed something similar. But the inspiration wasn’t what made me run back to the car. It was the certainty. The immediate knowing: This was the image I came for, even if I hadn’t known it yet.

I didn’t bother with a tripod. I wanted to remain nimble, ready for the light to shift. Standing on the river stones, camera in hand, I watched the water slide over the leaf like a veil. And as I looked through the viewfinder, I found myself thinking:

Where did this leaf begin?
How long had it held fast to its branch?
What storms had it endured?
When did it finally let go?
And what had it witnessed during its season of giving life?

Now, beneath the water, it would continue giving—to microorganisms, to the river, to the quiet cycle of return that the forest floor understands better than we ever will.

The calmness of that leaf beneath the current—completely at peace with its fate—hit me harder than I expected. It glowed as though it had been placed there on purpose, caught in its final moment under a curtain-call spotlight. The frustration of the morning dissolved. The failed foliage hunt, the lifeless skies, the weeks of chasing conditions that never came—all of it fell away.

This was the image.
Not the bridge.
Not the foliage.
Not the plan.

This.

A moment so small I might have overlooked it on any other day. But after everything—after disappointment, after directionless driving, after weeks of unmet expectations—this quiet, luminous surrender felt like an answer.

A reminder that beauty doesn’t always reward the plan.
Sometimes it rewards the letting go.

And as I stood there watching the leaf rest in its final stillness, I understood something I should have remembered all along:

Every time I think I’ll come home empty-handed, nature gives me something else—something I didn’t know I needed until the moment I see it.

This one is among my favorite images I’ve ever made.
Because it didn’t just show me something beautiful—
It reminded me why I photograph at all.

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Where We Are Held

(Forest Floor Series — Story Behind the Photograph)

Hiking Bear Mountain in November is a lesson in humility. The day I made this image, the mountain offered nothing willingly. Rain had been falling since dawn; cold, bitter, sharp enough to turn each breath into steam. Fog clung to the forest like a second bark, softening trees into pale silhouettes and muting the entire landscape into a watercolor wash. On days like this, you don’t go out expecting comfort; you go out hoping for revelation.

I was hiking with a close friend that morning, a photographer I’ve admired for years, someone whose eye finds structure in chaos, someone whose compositions have shaped how I think about my own work. He knows this mountain as well as some people know their childhood streets. He’s climbed it in blistering heat, deep snow, and everything in between. And yet that morning, even he found nothing. He had hoped my “fresh eyes” on his familiar terrain would spark something he hadn’t yet seen. But the truth was unavoidable:

We were both fighting the forest.

Anyone who has tried photographing inside densely wooded terrain knows the frustration. The compositions feel too busy, too layered, too inconsistent to hold together in a single frame. In wide-open spaces, I feel at home. The forest interior, though? That’s always been harder. My eyes reach outward—not inward. When everything intersects - branches, brambles, shadows, glistening wet bark- the camera wants simplicity, and the forest rarely cooperates.

After forty-five minutes of climbing toward the summit, the rain intensified enough to drum on our hoods. The fog was mesmerizing, almost transcendent, but the images were not. We stopped. We scanned. We waited. Nothing held long enough to become a photograph.

And this is where years of frustration finally taught me something:

When the scene ahead refuses to speak, look down.

The forest floor has become a refuge for me, a place where overwhelming complexity collapses into clarity. A place where the stories of a landscape settle, gather, and wait with patience. And on that rain-soaked trail, the moment I lowered my gaze, the entire mountain changed.

Resting gently on a bed of moss was a single blue-tinged leaf -no bigger than my palm-held softly by the forest floor beneath it. Moss cradled it like a cushion, almost as if the forest had placed it there deliberately. The surrounding world was wet, tangled, and chaotic, yet this one small scene felt impossibly intimate. Quiet. Tender, even.

It stopped me immediately.

There is a rare kind of calm that exists on the forest floor in late autumn. Everything that once reached upward eventually returns downward, folding back into the earth to begin again. Leaves become shelter. Moss becomes cradle. What falls finds a place to be held.

This image “Where We Are Held” is my attempt to honor that moment.

It’s the kind of scene that reveals itself only when you shift your attention from searching to noticing. From forcing to accepting. From wanting a grand moment to receiving a small one.

The blue leaf, resting gently on the moss, taught me something that morning:

We are all held by something;

a memory, a place, a season, a person,

or the quiet truth that rest is not weakness

but a necessary part of becoming.

In a year marked by uncertainty and transition, this small moment of stillness spoke louder than any sweeping vista ever could. It reminded me that serenity doesn’t always come from the top of the mountain. Sometimes it’s waiting at your feet.

Featured Limited Edition Print “Where We Are Held”

A serene, contemplative work from the Forest Floor Series, celebrating quiet resilience and the gentle spaces that catch us when we fall. Ideal for collectors seeking art that brings peace, grounding, and emotional depth into the home.

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